Thursday, April 4, 2013

Why Am I So Afraid?




Why am I so afraid of my sudden happiness?
why do I have to be sad in a sunny day?
I ask myself these questions while I can no longer contain my tears.

I wake up and a sudden burden weighs me down, 
I force myself to smile, I force myself to breath,
the day goes on as if I were a character in a silent movie, 
no song, no smile, no nothing, emptiness everywhere.

The afternoons are the worst, 
my mind is left alone to wander to those places I am not supposed to go.
The quietness of my loneliness echoes in my head,
this silence makes too much noise; I hush my silence, it disappears, it fades away;
and I am left alone, all alone with my own thoughts.

At the end of the day, I see my loved one, I smile; 
my soul finds some kind of quietness, some kind of peace.
At the end of the day, I have to remind myself that I am loved.
At the end of the day, I have to remind myself that I am alive.


















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